I am a horrible mother!!!!

Yes, I'm a horrible mother. Yesterday was good. All my visits showed, one was even fun to talk to. I saw a cute little baby learning to walk and best of all I saw a chicken cross the road! Really, I did. When I picked up Mattea she yelled out Mama and came running to my car. This doesn't usually happen when she is with Charlie. I usually get a smile and then her clinging to him and crying when we actually leave. Yesterday she kept saying "bye-bye" and wanted to actually leave with me!!!!! Well the we went to CVS. This is where I became a horrible mom. I didn't want to put on her shoes so I put her in the cart. If you know the CVS carts, they're not very big and the little kid seat in front was not right so she was sitting in the cart. Well she likes to stand up and say hi to everyone. Not a huge deal usually but with a small cart I tell her to stay by the front (by me) and hold on there because it is taller. Well as I was comparison shopping for tampons, yes that's the reason I was there, I hear a big thud and see Mattea face down, spread eagle on the floor. I have see thes positiion many time on Rescue 911 and other discovery health shows and my heart dropped. I was so scared to see what I would find when I picked her up. I grab her and find nothing. Nothing, yes nothing. No blood, no missing teeth, no gooseeggs, no red marks, no scratches, nothing except some fuzz that was stuck in her hair. She cried for maybe 30 seconds and then was ok. I on the other hand was on the verge of tears and bought her a balloon, or in Mattea's language a "lu-loon." So moral of my lesson-I will stick to my regular tampons and leave the life-changing ones to Katie and Michelle. They made me a horrible mother and who knows how long it will take me to get over this. I know I want her involved with gymnastics but a back-flip off a shopping cart is not the way I planned for her to start.

Something to cheer us up (or at least it did me)!!!

So as my friends know, I have been having a very hard time with my very negative thoughts and feeling towards just about everything. I'm not articulate (I know your pain Ryan) and Jen and Lana know I just explode in rage, although I like to call it passion. Anyways it has passed and I will be back to myself next week. Until someone asks me about Palin, immigration, and a slew of other topics I can't even think of.

Evidence she slept in her crib at least once!!!!!!!!!

Katie, please ignore the pillow and 2 blankets!

After lots of requests, I have updated the blog!!!!!

Mattea, Angi, and Lily

My mom and dad on a teeter totter.

Mattea, Lily, and Ava at the Children's Museum

Hello Everybody!

It is 7:00am and I can't think of anything to say so it's pics for everyone.

Annoying

Disclaimer-I don't follow politics too closely, I pick who I like and don't sway so this is not for arguements sake just a small rant.

I try very hard to overlook alot of the political stuff going on, especially if I don't agree with it. But I must say I get very disappointed and sad when people don't see the candidates the way I do. I know it's not fair but it's the truth. I thought it sneaky that McCain picked Palin and I am so afraid that people will buy into it. I read on a blog that we should vote for morality which was why the blogger was voting McCain. WHAT?????? People really think that voting for McCain and everything that comes with him is a better choice because of morals, please be kidding. Obama seems to have his morality in check and a fresh idea for the future. I also think he goes to church (because seperation of church and state is really a myth) so why is he so bad?

VOTE OBAMA
-he's fresh
-he's committed
-he's not old
-he cares about women
-he can't do any worse then George W. has in the last 8 years

We need some young blood in the White House!!!!!

Supermodel

Fresh-Faced

Easy, Breezy, beautiful CoverGirl

Nice mess you made Mattea!


Brooding in her pinapple pj and trucker cap.

The many faces of a budding supermodel. She may have the face for it but she is not an actress. Movies will be missing out on her dramatic flair.

Shark bite and Puppy Dog

Ryan and Mattea

Me and Mattea

Nice view of her shark(Lily) bite!

Still very focused on the dog

Fun times at Kevin's cookout with Ryan, Jen and a cute little puppy. Mattea likes dogs and you can tell she wants to touch them and play with them but she is very scared of them. Most of the dogs at Kevin's house Mattea could sit on but she was still scared. So we did some therapy and tried getting her used to petting and playing with the littlest one (in the pics). She was only about a pound and was very sweet and we actually got her to hold the puppy.